December 2019
“2020 is approaching. I have heard there is some weird Corona Virus which has come up in China. The final exams of 11th are about to get over. My last year in school gonna be extremely exciting and obviously important too. We will have a wonderful farewell and make the best memories.”
December 2020
Online classes are weird. No farewell for us too. We don’t know whether boards exams will happen or not. We don’t know whether we will get into some good college or not. What does the future hold, Lord?
Uncertainty tends to infinity.
A little ray of hope in the corner of my heart says, the virus will go away next year definitely.
May 2021
Anxiety tends to infinity now.
I am unable to remember the lessons of Chemistry now. Boards got postponed. Sleep cycle has gone for a toss. Productivity is just zero. Worries and worries. The brain is too tired to revise the syllabus completed in 1.5 years.
June 2021
Delhi-NCR in complete mess.
Death and pain.
Death and hospital bed.
Death and oxygen cylinder.
Death and ‘Blood donors required!’
We kept our studies aside and began helping people with the necessary medical leads and home cooked food.
Horrifying times.
1st June 2021
Boards cancelled.
End of anxiety?
No, not at all.
Will we get the results of our hard work?
A hard work which might just go in vain.
July 30,2021: 2pm
Result are announced. I scored exactly the same percentage, i had predicted.
Chemistry let me down as expected.
50,000 students got extraordinary results.
Cut off will go all time high. I don’t think so I will get admission in a good college. People worse than me have got higher marks than me.
August 23,2021: Morning
First merit list are to be announced. I can just dream of getting into this particular college. I will definitely not get into SXC, Kolkata.
Let me just go and cook some Chicken Lababdar !
5:00 pm
Did I just see my name on the list?
Moment of disbelief.
YES, it’s there!!
See my dear readers, Shakespeare was right. Expectations are a cause of heart ache. I shouldn’t have expected 2020 to be a wonderful year.
Krishna said that one should not get attached to the results of their Karma.
I was so pessimistic about not getting into the college I wanted to get into, simply because I thought I wouldn’t clear the cut-offs of CU and DU.
But God had different plans. I did.
So my new year resolution of 2022 is:
No expectations, no thought about the future.
I will just enjoy the PRESENT.
Life lies in the present, my dear readers.
Happy Sunday❤
Shreshtha Sengupta
Unbounded✨
Rightly concluded. Enjoyed this too. Best wishes for 2022
Very apt! I truly agree with the message
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